I don’t know what to do anymore, I don’t know how much of this pain I could still bear…. Things happened in a flash… without even notice… I wanted to stop this tears from falling down… I don’t want to feel this feeling again… the pain… the sadness… it’s like a chain lang, paulit-ulit na nangyayari, I am destined to be a loser… to be heartbroken always…. it was just recent when I have finally get over from that past heartbreak, but now there’s another one again… i don’t want this feeling anymore… sometimes i just wich that i would die na lang…. so that i couldn’t feel this pain anymore… it really hurt so much…. so much than the past heartbreaks… sometimes i wish i never learned to love at all… so that i would never be hurt… i know this is insane, and i am just boring you with my nonesense heartbreak thoughts, that;s why i chose to write here.. no one hops here… no one would read this… it’s just you and me, blogsome.com
if only i could just stop this feeling, if only…. sana he didn’t came back…. sana he didn’t ask me to give him another chance… then sana hindi ako nagkakaganito ngaun… crying… hurt… depressed… i really don’t know what to do anymore…. i don’t know if i can bear this anymore… sometimes i wish to be numb.. to feel nothing… but it’s like a knife that keeps on stabbing my heart…. it really hurts a lot…. sometimes i wonder what wrong have i done… pra pasakitan ng ganito… i gave up all that i have to gave up but pero mapupunta lng pla sa wala…. i don’t know what to do….. Lord God please help me…. i know you won’t give me this if i can’t bear it. but honestly i am not bearing ti anymore…. if anything happens, i hope you’ll forgive me…. whatever is it that i have done wrong in the past i hope you would forgive me… if this is really your will, please please give me the STRENGTH to cope up… to build myself again…
to know my worth… to regain my self esteem… i really need you now Lord…. please… please…. help me… it’s so hard when you have no one to talk to….
i don’t wanna cry anymore…...