hay…. i still feel empty and lonely…. no matter how hard i try not to send a text message from him or restrict myself to view his profile, i just can’t… i missed him so much… :( and it hurts every time i see his new photos or any updates, especially testimonials that came from his new found love…. i feel so sad… thought i try not to act like one but i guess i am not good at pretending… i try to be busy but wasn’t successful in doing so… i still think of him almost every hour of the day… the memories that we had.. sigh :( I just missed him so much…. i’m wondering if he missed me too… i am so hopeful on the past weeks that somehow he might change his mind and would go back to me… but now, those hopes are slowly fading… the thought of it hurts… i try to go back to blogging again now… but all i could think of is him… and i don’t know what else to write… i have a few reviews to do for the past weeks but i got so lazy and can’t think of anything to write about that it expires… yeah… 5 or 6 reviews… hmmm.. sayang din… and now wala na tuloy akong opportunities.. hhmm…but i rarely go online these days… been so lazy… and i don’t wanna get tempted to view him even if i’m dying to see him…
 
i try to get busy sometimes, go out… malling, shopping, meet friends, watch movies, read a book…. i was able to get him out of my mind for hours but when night time comes and when i am about to sleep, all i could think of is him…. just him… hay…. i just wish this all but a dream…..