Been lazy to write lately… well, it is so obvious, it’s been a while and haven’t updated this blog…Anyways, nothing really great happened to me lately…

Well, I had been able to talk to my ex’s best friend online and she told me something… I was not that surprised but I dunno I really don’t know what to feel at that moment… My minds’ shouting : laugh out loud! but a lot of questions been running out my mind… after a while, well, I did Laugh, as in Laugh out loud… Did it make me feel better?! I guess not… I tried to convince myself that I feel better but actually I didn’t… I know it was so mean of me to laugh at what had happened to him… Well, somehow, I knew it would happen… I dunno… I am not praying or whatever, but I dunno I just have this feeling that that would happen… and I knew what he is feeling right now…

So I decided and claim to be his best friend (now I am claiming to be his best friend nah, LOL).. I called him and we did talked… but before that I had a drink first hahaha… to have a courage to talk to him? yeah… and it did work… lol… I was fishing for information but he didn’t exactly tell me about what I really wanted to know… I guess it’s hard for him to say it, the fact that he left me for that girl and now that girl had dumped him… I know it’s so hard for him as it is hard for me too… I feel sorry for what had happened… how I wish it never happen in the first place, but it did and we can’t turn back now… I was testing myself too, I have succeeded not to view his blog or friendster pofile and pictures for a while… didn’t send any text messages and didn’t call him…. until that night… that night when I went into the roof top and called him… I tried to test if I still have this feeling for him… well, I did missed talking to him but that’s just it… I have never felt the pain anymore and the longing… to be with him or anything… Wow… I can finally say, I am free from him… I don’t feel any extraordinary feeling anymore when we talked.. it was just like I am talking to a friend… this is good news… well, I am not doing emo stuff lately, hahaha except for that night lang…

Anyways, I am glad I did called him that night.. I was able to know what I really feel for him… Though sometimes I have thoughts about him but that’s just… Hmmm.. I am happy being single now…not that really happy but atleast I am happy… I have been laughng at simple things again… being able to see life as it is… I am glad those nightmare’s been over…

I just hope he finds what he had been really looking for… I still wish him to be happy too… he still deserves to be…

Hmmm…. I guess that’s just all for now…